5w2d Ultrasound!!! I was only expecting to see a yolk sac but we could see a lil baby too!!!
We go back next Monday to hear the heartbeat! I know we have a long road ahead but.... TODAY....My heart is happy! 😍

5 weeks today! Slept better last night woohoo! Still feeling normal just need a good nap! Just slept from 4:30pm-6:30pm 😀😴
7pm- Back pain starting back up....mild at the moment.
Also, feeling a mild dull ache in my uterus.... hopefully its the sac & baby growing.

Scan in TWO DAYS!
 

15dp5dt (4 weeks 6 days)- Slept a smidge better. Feel good. Slight back ache midday....5pm back ache in full force! Slight stomach  (gastritis pain).








From Yesterday
14dp5dt- 11am… feeling super bitchy! WATCH THE FUCK OUT
Super tired. Wish I could get a full nights sleep
4-430- feeling pin point sharp pains (mild) lower left.

13dp5dt (4 weeks 5 days)- honestly feeling very normal except still waking up really early which sucks!

330pm- mild back pain with very mild dull ache in uterus. Barley noticeable

6pm- ugh back painnnnn ouchhhhhhhh

12dp5dt- Feeling good just tired! Woke up at 430 this morning and didnt get too much sleep after.
I had a teeny bit of nausea around 7ish.....really how much besides that. My back feels, no cramping or anything, I cervix might be a little bit irritated from my suppository accident, had some gas pains... Yeah, that's about it. Definitely don't feel pregnant.

Ultrasound in 6 days!

11dp5dt (yesterday) BETA 192!
Woke up to my gastritis stomach pain. Back killed me ALL NIGHT & pain was afwul pretty much all day. Its just easing up around 3pm

HAD A MAJOR FREAK OUT! I accidently put my  endometrin suppository pill into my cervix somehow!! I had to lay down to get it out and it took awhile because it was partially dissolved!
I emailed the doctor and he said he wasn't concerned but I literally have been freaking out that I screwed something up! Ughhh what a horrible feeling!

10dp5dt- Woke up STARVING!!!!
My gawdddddddddd

Slight dull ache of right side (ovary/ligament area)

7pm veryyyy mikd dull ache in uterus & back starting to ache

10:45pm- back still aching....hungry. No cramps.

11:50pm......laying in bed hungry AF .....UGHHHH

9dp5dt- Test was darker today which is reassuring! I'm trying to decide if I should have my clinic order another beta in Monday (which would be 11dp5dt)..... They said I didn't need another one but I don't know.... part of me wants to see my numbers higher since my numbers were drawn so early. The other half of me doesnt want the stress.

I feel good though! Still waking up early, sore boobs that seem worse in the morning. No backaches or cramping. Few aches on my right side near my ovary tonight. Hopefully I just pulled something. I remember having an ache on my side near ovary last time I was pregnant too.

8dp5dt & BETA RESULTS......13 & 36! (6dp5dt & 8dp5dt)!!! It almost tripled in 45 hours. IM PREGNANT!!! Trying not to get too excited as Im extremely early!!!


Crazy dreams again last night, already having to pee more at night. Cant sleep well....boobs are always extra sore in the morning.

7dp5dt- Woke up to soreeee boobs. Felt great all day. 530pm back started hurting just like before af. 10pm its eased up! Definitely tired tonight. Been laying in bed dince 930 which is crazy early for me!

Tested again today & line was darker (but still light).....will have beta results tomorrow! Freaking outttttt!!

Crossing all fingers and toes and limbs that this baby girl is getting super comfortable in there! She will be so loved! Grow baby girl!

6dp5dt- Felt good. Slightly sore boobs but thats really it!Also, had beta #1 drawn!

FRER Test was slightly darker than yesterday's FMU. 2nd test at 4pm was the same. Dollar store 4pm test had a nice line (after 15min)....ill be super anxious to get the beta results. I assume its a low number since its only 6dp5dt & we only transferred 1 embryo. Im going to guess 7-15.

5dp5dt- HOLY BAJEEZUS BATMAN I GOT A BFP TODAYYYYYY!

Symptoms:
-woke up to another crazy vivid dream (dreamt i was pregnant ha!)
-sore boobs
-couple queasy moments
-af like camping
-moderate lower back pain (like before af)

Irritated...so out of curiosity today I asked the grade of the embryo they transferred. I had 3 girls...two hatching 5bbs and one 2bb (the 2bb had also been rethawed and re-biopsied bc the first PGS test result was "no result")...
I 100% assumed that they transferred 1 of the hatching 5bbs ....But NOPE the 2bb! Why? Seriously? Why?

I know they told me previously (in their opinion)  that since they were tested thatd they have the same success rates but I just dont see how esp with it being re-biopsied.

Sooo auto-fucking-matically now I feel like this shit really has even a less chance if working.  Awesome.

If this embryo makes a baby Ill insert foot in mouth & gracefully bow my head but for the moment Im just going to sit here and stew.....hufff pufff & POUT.

4dp5dt- ::SLAPS HANDS::....MENTS...I was bad and tested this morning at 4dp5dt (w/frer) and of course it was negative. I was negative the night of 4dp5dt with twins so I wouldnt expect a positive the morning of 4dp5dt with a singleton.....I just have zero patience lol

Symptom wise....I feel nothing. Pretty sure it didnt work FML

6pm-ish .....very mild af like cramps. Super dull. 

12am.   Still having mild af like cramps... not overly noticeable but there.  

Not looking forward to testing in the morning.... this is a bfn..  I just know 

3dp5dt-  Woke up to a dream/nightmare  that I wish I could forever burn out of my mind 😝😝😝
It was super fucking weird & disgusting.  There was a party at dads....& my dad & ex best friend had SEX & there was just too many gross details to share....VOMIT.

Besides that grotesque shit....
No cramps or anything. Feel zip, zada, squat.
My lower back is achy (not out of the norm for me thol...prob from my hubbs laying on me with his heavy ass arm.

9am- so haven't been really out of bed yet to see if I get anymore lightheaded-ness again. Will update later....

So it seems after I insert my progesterone suppositories I feel a very mild burning sensation then possibly an achy uterus....Did I mention that I HATE PROGESTERONE?

1pm- woke up from a nap to another crazy dream.....also people screwing lol....oh & some make up ha!

Midday= Holy hot flashes!

330pm- possible mild cramping?
430pm-  Its bad that Im sitting  here questioning if im feeling cramping….maybe slight dull ache? Or I could just be fucking crazy.
6pm- lil queasy.

9pm- still feeling very achy feeling in uterus
1045pm- still aching uterus...feels like AF type cramps

2dp5dt- Woke up still bloated & gassy (tmi). No cramps or dull ache...still feeling a mild heaviness across my lower abdomen (gas I assume). Slightly sore boobies still... all from progesterone I know but just jotting every lil fucking thing down bc Im psycho. 🤓
 If I get up and move  too much I get a lil lightheaded & dizzy.  Still feeling kinda "off"…

Have a heaviness in my lower abdomen….ive pooped today (yesterday) so not quite sure about that but it didn’t start until after transfer.  Just weird bc I know its too soon for symptoms


Saw a black cat staring at me today...Taking at as a good sign since I love halloween .
 Freya, the Norse Goddess of Love & Fertility drives a chariot pulled by two black cats.

Black cat, cross my path 
Good fortune bring to home and hearth
When I am away from home
Bring me luck wherever I roam

- Old English Charm 

1dp5dt- dull ache cramp gone when I woke up. Inserted vag suppository now feel slight burn. Slightly tender breasts (didn’t check yesterday)
Dizzy, slight nausea at lunch went home. Felt better then around 5pm feeling dizzy and nauseous again.....just overall feel "sickish."
Also felt slight heaviness in lower abdomen

Night before transfer= feeling dull achy cramp in uterus.

10/13 Transfer- dull burn achy cramp most evening/night

Transfer Day! So this happened today! I realized Im a incredibly behind in updating sooooo here it goes....

We had our last transfer at Barbados fertility Centre in October of 2015 which was unsuccessful. We actually took it pretty well to be honest!
In November of 2015 I ended up started working a job that covers IVF on the health insurance so that became effective on January 1st 2016! Due to now having health insurance coverage we had to cycle locally so we chose a local Clinic called MCRM in St Louis Missouri!
We decided to do 2 IVF egg retrievals with Banking and pgs testing! Our first a retrieval was on February 26th 2016 and it went pretty well. We ended up with 2 pgs normal males and 1 "no result" that we had retested that ended up coming back a NORMAL female! Then we did our second retrieval May 14th 2016 & we ended up with 2 pgs normal males & 2 normal females! For a grand total of 3 pgs normal females and 4 pgs normal males!

We decided to take the summer off and not transfer anything just to kind of have a "summer of fun" and also we like to be secretive about what we are doing to our friends and neighbors and we spend a lot of time at the pool during the summer and daily blood thinner injections leave quite the fun marks on my belly so they would have known something was up specially with me not drinking haha!

Me and him talked long and hard and he decided he really wants a girl so we elected to do a single Embryo transfer of a female! THAT WAS TODAY!! PIC BELOW!

She was a 5BB and she thawed beautifully!

I will start testing probably like a psycho on Monday 4dp5dt 🤓

Overall.... honestly feel really good. I feel hopeful yet extremely realistic which I think is the best way to be!
If it works of course we will be over the moon but if it doesn't work knowing we have backup embryos is is nice and reassuring.
Im ready for whatever comes my way!!!